11.24.04

Thanksgiving

Posted in Family, Food and Cooking at 6:40 pm by Jules

So, tomorrow is good ol’ turkey day for us! I’m making our traditional family recipe dressing again this year. However, I will be sure to use LOTS less celery than last time. Can you say YUCK????

I’m also making - well, actually Draaz is making it today, I think - a sugar-free pumpkin cheesecake with a pecan crust. Now, yeah, I know… “Sugar free??? YUCK!!!” But see, I can’t eat much sugar now. If I do, it makes me sick, and I LOVE pumpkin sweets, so I wanted to have something I could eat at least a whole piece of! So, that’s what I’m doing. :D

Draaz is also making an Irish Oat Bread which is yummy. I’m making tomato butter to have with various breads. Mom is making broccoli with cheese, butterbeans (yum), sweet potato soufflĂ©, and something else, I believe. Sister in law is making mashed potatoes, and my brother is deep frying the turkey. Feast time! This will all be at lunch.

Then tomorrow night, two of our friends (who aren’t spending Thanksgiving with any family) are coming over to eat. We’re having venison roast with potatoes and carrots (he doesn’t like turkey) and probably some dressing or something. I’m excited! I get to spend all day with my kith and kin. :D Good food and good company, what more could you ask for?

The worst thing is I have to go to Wal-Mart today. *eek*

HAPPY TURKEY DAY, y’all!!!

11.21.04

New Eyes

Posted in General at 3:12 pm by Jules

So, after finally growing completely tired of bruised knees from banging into my desk and spilled drinks from not being able to judge distance, I bit the bullet and went to get contacts yesterday. Wow. I’m not sure the prescription is exactly right yet; it may need to be changed a bit, but wearing these is certainly much better than my glasses.

I’m far-sighted, so I never needed to wear glasses except while reading. However, age will change things like that, I suppose. After wearing them at work all day long for years (for obvious reasons), I finally started having to wear them at home while crocheting… then even while watching television. So, I decided I might as well wear them full-time. Now I have lovely contacts, so I no longer have to worry about catching things on the edge of my lens and not being able to judge what I’m doing.

My knees will be so thankful!

11.09.04

No Room

Posted in General at 3:10 pm by Jules

Do you ever find that there’s just not enough room in your brain nor enough time in the day to concentrate on actually learning as much as you’d like to know?

I tend to go through phases. One week, my focus will be on wanting to be more involved in our government and knowing what’s going on there. But then I find that it takes over my brain and I have no room for other important things like learning more Heathen lore. It goes on from there to different topics.

I find I can’t do/learn all the things I’d like to do/learn because I have to dedicate my time more fully to just one in order to really learn and understand it.

I’m rambling, I think. Eh, maybe some of you will know what I mean.

At any rate, it’s frustrating! I was watching “Datalore” yesterday (old Star Trek: TNG episode), and I found myself being so envious of Data’s ability to read and absorb information almost instantly. If only!!! *le sigh*

Oh well… I guess I’ll keep flip-flopping and eventually I might learn something of note about one thing or another. Perhaps I need to just prioritize and accept the fact that I can’t learn and know about EVERYTHING!

11.05.04

Questions

Posted in General at 5:50 pm by Jules

All the recent discussion has spurned questions which continue to rattle around in my head.

So, any answers and/or resources would be appreciated.

1. Is our national budget a matter of public record?
2. Why do we constantly maintain a deficit?
3. Do other countries, in general, work with a national deficit, also?
4. How would one go about keeping up with exactly what an administration is doing/changing/helping/killing/making worse/better - other than news? (I don’t trust news sources, generally.)

It may seem pretty pathetic that someone doesn’t know these things about her own country, but… there it is.

I’d like to know.

11.04.04

Thinking

Posted in General at 8:41 pm by Jules

The election this week and my personal life have had my mind on a super run. My mind on a run is nothing unusual; it’s always working too hard on crazy stuff. However, today, I realized something.

I used to think about vast things. Global things. World-changing things. I used to think about humanity and its pitfalls and wonder how I could help. I used to want to exert positive influence on the world through any method possible. I used to dream of being a big influence through my music - writing, singing, sharing. I used to want world peace more than anything.

Now, I just think about myself and my family and friends. I think about how I want my personal life to be better. I don’t care so much about the rest of humanity unless it directly relates to me. I think about how I’m going to pay the bills and whether or not my daughter will grow up strong and independent. I think about how important my local, daily influence is, and I wonder which one trumps: local or world. I dream of personal peace instead of world peace, and I wonder if peace really even exists in any capacity.

I fear the dreams of youth have given way to the cynicism of everyday life and its responsibilities. Sometimes I hate that thought; sometimes I just don’t care. I think that’s what bothers me most - the apathy. It’s like I just can’t take my own passion anymore because I think, “What’s the point?” so I just get numb. What a horrid feeling.

But, I will continue, and I will make myself better. :)
Enty

P.S. - Oh, and one day, I’ll run away to Europe - somehow… sometime. The draw will finally win. :)

11.03.04

h

Posted in General at 3:37 pm by Jules

I just have this pervasive feeling of depression which seems to slowly be turning into apathy. These are NOT good things!! What do I do to change that? The things I think will fix it might not actually fix it. They’re things that have very little to do with myself and loads to do with others. Am I not looking inside enough, or are things really everyone else’s fault?

Fuck this shit.

Yeah

Posted in General at 3:07 pm by Jules

I have so much going on right now, none of which I can address in a public place… *sigh* I feel like there’s so much I need to get OUT, but regardless of how much I talk to people about it, it never really helps me or makes me feel better. I still don’t know WHAT TO DO. I’m getting to a point, though, that I just can’t deal with everything. I feel myself detaching from certain things and people in my life, and I’ve had that feeling before. It’s kinda scary. :-/

Sometimes I just feel like running away to Europe somewhere…