06.28.06

The Man from Snowy River

Posted in General at 12:15 pm by Jules

The Man from Snowy River was one of my very favorite movies growing up. I think this was because 1) I loved horses so much and 2) Tom Burlinson was sooooo cute!!! At any rate, I found out recently that the movie is actually based on a poem! How cool!! So, here it is.


The Man from Snowy River
by A. B. (Banjo) Paterson

There was movement at the station, for the word had passed around
That the colt from old Regret had got away,
And had joined the wild bush horses — he was worth a thousand pound,
So all the cracks had gathered to the fray.
All the tried and noted riders from the stations near and far
Had mustered at the homestead overnight,
For the bushmen love hard riding where the wild bush horses are,
And the stock-horse snuffs the battle with delight.

There was Harrison, who made his pile when Pardon won the cup,
The old man with his hair as white as snow;
But few could ride beside him when his blood was fairly up —
He would go wherever horse and man could go.
And Clancy of the Overflow came down to lend a hand,
No better horseman ever held the reins;
For never horse could throw him while the saddle-girths would stand,
He learnt to ride while droving on the plains.

And one was there, a stripling on a small and weedy beast,
He was something like a racehorse undersized,
With a touch of Timor pony — three parts thoroughbred at least —
And such as are by mountain horsemen prized.
He was hard and tough and wiry — just the sort that won’t say die —
There was courage in his quick impatient tread;
And he bore the badge of gameness in his bright and fiery eye,
And the proud and lofty carriage of his head.

But still so slight and weedy, one would doubt his power to stay,
And the old man said, ‘That horse will never do
For a long and tiring gallop — lad, you’d better stop away,
Those hills are far too rough for such as you.’
So he waited sad and wistful — only Clancy stood his friend —
‘I think we ought to let him come,’ he said;
‘I warrant he’ll be with us when he’s wanted at the end,
For both his horse and he are mountain bred.

‘He hails from Snowy River, up by Kosciusko’s side,
Where the hills are twice as steep and twice as rough,
Where a horse’s hoofs strike firelight from the flint stones every stride,
The man that holds his own is good enough.
And the Snowy River riders on the mountains make their home,
Where the river runs those giant hills between;
I have seen full many horsemen since I first commenced to roam,
But nowhere yet such horsemen have I seen.’

So he went — they found the horses by the big mimosa clump —
They raced away towards the mountain’s brow,
And the old man gave his orders, ‘Boys, go at them from the jump,
No use to try for fancy riding now.
And, Clancy, you must wheel them, try and wheel them to the right.
Ride boldly, lad, and never fear the spills,
For never yet was rider that could keep the mob in sight,
If once they gain the shelter of those hills.’

So Clancy rode to wheel them — he was racing on the wing
Where the best and boldest riders take their place,
And he raced his stock-horse past them, and he made the ranges ring
With the stockwhip, as he met them face to face.
Then they halted for a moment, while he swung the dreaded lash,
But they saw their well-loved mountain full in view,
And they charged beneath the stockwhip with a sharp and sudden dash,
And off into the mountain scrub they flew.

Then fast the horsemen followed, where the gorges deep and black
Resounded to the thunder of their tread,
And the stockwhips woke the echoes, and they fiercely answered back
From cliffs and crags that beetled overhead.
And upward, ever upward, the wild horses held their way,
Where mountain ash and kurrajong grew wide;
And the old man muttered fiercely, ‘We may bid the mob good day,
No man can hold them down the other side.’

When they reached the mountain’s summit, even Clancy took a pull,
It well might make the boldest hold their breath,
The wild hop scrub grew thickly, and the hidden ground was full
Of wombat holes, and any slip was death.
But the man from Snowy River let the pony have his head,
And he swung his stockwhip round and gave a cheer,
And he raced him down the mountain like a torrent down its bed,
While the others stood and watched in very fear.

He sent the flint stones flying, but the pony kept his feet,
He cleared the fallen timber in his stride,
And the man from Snowy River never shifted in his seat —
It was grand to see that mountain horseman ride.
Through the stringy barks and saplings, on the rough and broken ground,
Down the hillside at a racing pace he went;
And he never drew the bridle till he landed safe and sound,
At the bottom of that terrible descent.

He was right among the horses as they climbed the further hill,
And the watchers on the mountain standing mute,
Saw him ply the stockwhip fiercely, he was right among them still,
As he raced across the clearing in pursuit.
Then they lost him for a moment, where two mountain gullies met
In the ranges, but a final glimpse reveals
On a dim and distant hillside the wild horses racing yet,
With the man from Snowy River at their heels.

And he ran them single-handed till their sides were white with foam.
He followed like a bloodhound on their track,
Till they halted cowed and beaten, then he turned their heads for home,
And alone and unassisted brought them back.
But his hardy mountain pony he could scarcely raise a trot,
He was blood from hip to shoulder from the spur;
But his pluck was still undaunted, and his courage fiery hot,
For never yet was mountain horse a cur.

And down by Kosciusko, where the pine-clad ridges raise
Their torn and rugged battlements on high,
Where the air is clear as crystal, and the white stars fairly blaze
At midnight in the cold and frosty sky,
And where around the Overflow the reedbeds sweep and sway
To the breezes, and the rolling plains are wide,
The man from Snowy River is a household word to-day,
And the stockmen tell the story of his ride.

06.27.06

When I Start to Think…

Posted in General at 7:55 am by Jules

I hate it when I start thinking about how much more money I really should be paid for the job I do. I know others’ salaries here in the company (some of whom I have to babysit on occasion and insist they do things which they already KNOW are part of their job to do), and I know that if I had a pecker, I would make more. Yet, I don’t have the balls to walk into my boss’s office and say, “Look. I need more money. It’s ridiculous for you to pay me what you do for the job I’m currently doing.” And it is. Now, granted, I understand that - for this area - I make a decent salary, but that’s irrelevant. That’s like saying, “Yeah, he beats me up, but that’s normal for the south, and it only hurts a little bit.” And then - just like a minute ago - people make decisions about my job without consulting me to see if it would cause problems elsewhere. I’m never included on “meetings” because I’m not ONE OF THE BOYS, and it’s just horseshit.

But, I need a job. I’m not sure I could get a better one here, and I’m not sure if I’m ready to move somewhere else. You know what, though? I could just start doing my job up to par with my salary and no more. That’s only fair, right?

You know what makes it all better? I have the love of a wonderful man and two little girls who make life more than interesting, a dependable family to lean on, and friends I wouldn’t trade for anything. :)

06.22.06

New Windows!

Posted in General at 8:43 am by Jules

Jake and I were watching the news this morning, and I caught something on there about a new release of Windows. They showed some screenshots and how it works and stuff, and man… I want this!

It’s called Windows Vista, and it really looks cool. I think I’m going to wait awhile, though, until it’s released for real and out of Beta. Then I’m going to talk to my boss and see about upgrading our computers here. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We really need to soon, anyway. We’re still running Windows 2000, and that’s just almost obsolete at this point.

06.21.06

3-C

Posted in General at 7:42 am by Jules

Turns out, someone quit, so they’re leaving Jake on 3rd shift and on the same cycle he was on. Good news overall! :D

06.20.06

2nd Shift

Posted in General at 10:55 am by Jules

Need I say more?

06.19.06

GAH!

Posted in General at 3:13 pm by Jules

I am so frickin’ sleepy, I could just die. I swear. I lay my head down on my desk for about 30 seconds and had to sit up because I would’ve fallen asleep for sure! You know, if I could go straight home after work and chill out, it would be better, but I can’t. I’m going to pick Katie up; then I have to go water plants at my parents’ house because they’re out of town.

Yeah, I know. Waaa waaa. Cry me a river. Want some cheese with that whine? Waamburger and french cries…

Shut up! That’s white dirt! :P

Posted in General at 12:28 pm by Jules

The willow which bends to the tempest, often escapes better than the oak which resists it; and so in great calamities, it sometimes happens that light and frivolous spirits recover their elasticity and presence of mind sooner than those of a loftier character.
- Albert Schweitzer

I’m not sure this is the exact quote I remember, but I still like it. So often, we use the oak tree as a symbol of strength and solidity. While it *is* those things, sometimes bending with the wind is the only way to escape the storm intact.

I should remind myself of this fact daily.

:(

Posted in General at 10:16 am by Jules

I want a new job.

Don’t get me wrong; I’m very thankful I HAVE a job and that it pays as well as it does.

But, the stress level keeps going up, and it’s really about to get the best of me.

06.17.06

I have WHA!?!?!

Posted in General at 7:42 am by Jules

I had my follow-up appointment at the doctor yesterday for my back problems. They took a couple of upper thoracic x-rays two weeks ago and sent them off to be studied. So, I’m sitting there in the doc’s office, and he walks in, “Hey Julie. How are you?” I look at him… “Well, I’m alright, I guess.” Then I tell him that the Ultram had worked for a few days and that made me happy. So, he’s looking through my chart and gets to the x-ray results page. I’m waiting, kinda patiently, pretty much expecting him to go, “Well… they didn’t find anything on the x-rays.” That’s when he says, “Well…,” and turns to me. “You have scoliosis.”

*blink*

“I have scoliosis?”

*blink blink*

So, enter my tremendous shock, center stage! I asked him how bad it was, and he said it’s mild. That’s better than severe, I suppose. End result of the whole thing is: I have to go see an orthopedic spine doctor and get them to do further tests to see how bad it actually is and what (if anything) can be done about it. The doctor yesterday told me, “I can’t say for sure your pain is being caused by the scoliosis, BUT… well, you’re having symptoms… you have scoliosis… so….”

Needless to say, while it’s nice to have a name to put to the problem, I’m not really happy about how things may proceed. If this pain is caused by the scoliosis, there’s probably nothing they can do about it short of surgery, and I don’t think my case is severe enough to warrant that, and I don’t think I would want it, anyway. So, I’ll probably just be stuck with this chronic pain. Dude, do you have any idea how much that would suck? Also, who knows how long it will be before I get that appointment with the orthopedist. Hopefully not too long.

At any rate, I’m going to keep taking the Ultram (upped dosage) and hopefully it will start to work again. That, at least, made it tolerable.

Me and my crooked-ass spine are going to stop now. :P

06.15.06

Pick One

Posted in General at 3:44 pm by Jules

We do what we must, and call it by the best names.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

And as for the truth it seems like we just pick a theory
It’s the one that justifies our daily lives
And backs us with quiver and arrows
- Emily Saliers

I suppose this is human nature and thus somewhat acceptable. I have a hard time with the “pick a theory” bit, though. Others don’t have a problem with it, and that’s fine. I just can’t make myself do that. If I don’t truly feel it down to my bones, I can’t subscribe to it. I’ve tried on multiple occasions, and it just doesn’t work.

As far as doing what we must and calling it by the best name… yeah. We all do that. Hell, we do that as entire societies!

Anyway, just a little bit to think about. I don’t feel very eloquent today, so that’s all I’m going to say.

06.14.06

Good While It Lasted

Posted in General at 3:21 pm by Jules

My back pain returned today, full-fucking-force. Yippee. It was nice to be semi-pain-free for a few days.

Fishing

Posted in General at 2:23 pm by Jules

There’s a fine line between fishing and just standing on the shore like an idiot.

- Steven Wright

I haven’t been fishing in so long, I can’t even remember the last time I went. I loved it when I was a kid; I’m really not sure I would like it now. I am patience-impaired at this point in my life. I’d really like to try, though. Jake says he loves fishing, and since he’s working for the state now, we can supposedly go fishing at some of their ponds. We need licenses, though. Maybe that’s something we should look into sometime soon.

Some of my fondest childhood memories involve my Dad and fishing. That was certainly our time. I still wish he had taken me hunting. He never would because I was a girl. *rolls eyes* Oh well. Maybe I’ll get to go some day.

:)

06.13.06

*cringe*

Posted in General at 2:24 pm by Jules

Every time the phone rings here and the girl working in the office with me answers it, I cringe because I’m afraid she’s going to transfer it to me. I don’t feel well today and would like nothing more than to be at home. Alas, I am not.

So, I’ll sit here and cringe for another 1.5 hours and curse occasionally when I have to actually DO something. BAH.

Shoulda Seen “Cars”

Posted in General at 7:20 am by Jules

My mom was kind enough to take the girls to see Cars last night while Jake and I went to see X-Men 3. Well, we should’ve gone to see Cars instead. Jake really didn’t like the movie. I was disappointed and would rather have spent that money on something else. They had the potential to make it a really good X-Men movie with some of the new mutants they had. They didn’t, though, and that’s ok. Hopefully they won’t try to make another one for a long long time.

The girls and my mom all said Cars was really good. They’re not the first ones I’ve heard say that. *sigh* Oh well! We’ll see it when it comes out on DVD. It was still nice going to the movies. :)

06.12.06

All Me

Posted in General at 9:58 am by Jules

I’m all wrapped up in myself this morning. I’m here at work, my co-workers are all friendly and talkative this morning, and I can’t do anything but stare off into space and smile at them occasionally. It’s so strange when I get all up in my head like this. The funny thing is, I don’t have a lot on my mind - for a change. That’s usually what’s going on when I’m like this. I suppose this time it’s because I’m not feeling well this morning. I felt better yesterday and this morning was fine until about 8:30 or so. Now I’m all cruddy again. Ah well. That’s how it goes, I guess.

I watched Pride and Prejudice yesterday. I love period movies. This one was good, but I didn’t like it nearly as much as Sense and Sensibility. I LOVE that movie so much!! However, Matthew Macfadyen (who played Mr. Darcy in P&P) is… hot. It goes beyond that, too. Maybe it was just his character, but he was intriguing and intense and… well, yeah. LOL. At any rate, it was nice to just sit and watch a movie again without doing stuff during or getting up 400 times to run around and do things. I made myself sit there (most of the time) and watch it.

I think I should end this disjointed and repetitive post before I slip up and say “this morning” again. :P

06.11.06

I Dunno

Posted in General at 7:57 pm by Jules

This weekend hasn’t been very productive, but I don’t feel bad about it for a change. I’ve been about half sick all weekend, so I haven’t felt like doing much of anything. BUT, the good news I have is that the latest medication my doctor called in seems to be helping with my back pain. Yay!!! Hopefully it will work as well while I’m at work all day.

Tonight is Jake’s last night on second shift. YAY!! He’s off for three days then starts his rotation on third shift. At some point during that rotation, he’ll find out what his actual shift assignment will be. I’m hoping for first but not expecting it. I’m realistically hoping for third and praying it’s NOT second. Well, I shouldn’t say praying because I’m not actually praying, but I’m hoping really hard. Really really hard.

I should probably go and take out my contacts now. I might in a few minutes.

ANyone else suffer from second-letter-capital-disease? I do. (As evidenced by the first word in this little paragraph here.) It’s annoying. MOst of the time I fix it, but since I’m writing about it right now, I’m just going to leave them. So, there.

Dole PIneapple Orange Juice is so yummy. ;)

06.09.06

Finish the sentence…

Posted in General at 3:10 pm by Jules

i feel… tired
i want… Jake
i am making.. myself miserable
i am wearing… clothes
i am trying to decide… how to cook dinner
my best friend is… Chelle
my favorite vacation place is… mountains
i am… tired
i want to be… pain free
i try to hard to… please others
my fear is… that I will screw up my life again
my hopes are… to have a decent house and life
when i get older, i… want to feel secure and loved
i look… tired
i enjoy… sleeping
i HATE… the medical & insurance world these days
one thing/person i love is… Jake
when i fall for someone, i… fall hard and fast
my favorite color is… purple
my favorite television show is… don’t have ONE
a person i adore is… Logan
a place i would go in a heartbeat is… EUROPE
i love the way… Jake’s mouth moves when he talks
my favorite time is… early in the morning (with coffee and quiet)
summer time is… too fucking hot
my life is… chaotic
one thing i can’t live without is… air
i… wish I had better things to say
i’m trying to… be content
like my father always says… “I was looking back to see if you were looking back at me”
the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do was… go through a custody battle
i NEED… to stop hurting
before i go to bed, i… use the bathroom and smoke a cigarette
the first thing i do in the morning is… hit the snooze button on the alarm clock
the best thing about life… is family
i never knew that… love could be so intense
my lucky number is… 7, I guess
my room is… I don’t wanna talk about it
i can’t… think straight right now
i love going to… the movies
i cry when… I’m sad (DUH)
something that makes me smile is… the innocence of children
it’s… too far from time to go!
i love the movie… My Big Fat Greek Wedding
this survey is… interesting, I guess
i am feeling… anxious
love is… a many splendor thing (LMAO)
traveling is… enjoyable, sometimes
whores are… probably unhappy
it is time to… do a little work
i am wearing… BDUs
something about a person that turns me on is… assertiveness and a sexy voice

More Bitching

Posted in General at 3:10 pm by Jules

2nd shift officially sucks. *crosses fingers* Whoever’s reading (and cares)… say a prayer, cast a spell, sacrifice a donut - whatever you want - that Jake will NOT get put on 2nd shift.

Drugs and Money

Posted in General at 9:02 am by Jules

Money I’ve spent so far on my neck/back problems:

$900.00 - Chiropractor (plus the cost of gas for a bazillion 20 mile trips)
$25.00 - Office visit (I didn’t have to pay when I went back for X-rays, thank goodness)
$40.00 - Ketoprofen - topical anti-inflammatory - DOESN’T WORK
$100.00 - Emergency Room visit (secondary problem that day, but still mentioned - the doctor laughed at me and did nothing, basically)
$63.00 - Ultram ER - my insurance would only cover 30 pills/30 days, and the ER isn’t available in generic yet - WHETHER IT WORKS OR NOT REMAINS TO BE SEEN. If it’s supposed to start working quickly, it evidently isn’t going to work, as my back is in really shitty form today.

I hate wasting money like that. I hate it with a passion, and it pisses me off. If it WORKS, I don’t consider it wasted. If not, well… obviously. I just hope those X-rays show somebody something and we can get this crap fixed somehow.

06.08.06

Faith is a Four Five Letter Word

Posted in General at 8:17 am by Jules

Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible.

- Stanislaw Lem


How completely true. I have a really hard time with faith - whether it’s faith in divine powers or people or myself or whatever. It’s hard for me. I’m too controlling and too anal retentive. The sad thing is, I really envy those who have such strong faith. They often don’t realize how much better off they have it. The best phrase I can think of to describe it (while not always accurate) is, “Ignorance is bliss.” *sigh* Sometimes I truly believe that. Then again, I’m glad I’m not ignorant, but it surely does make life more difficult sometimes.

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