11.30.06
A New One
Male Co-worker 1: I can’t talk to him like that
Male Co-worker 2: You big pussy
Male Co-worker 1: Yep! With a LOT o’ hair on it!
LMFAO!!
Stupid or What?
For those who may not know me personally, I’m fairly transparent when it comes to my emotions. I wear it all on my sleeve, as they say. That having been said, after working at the same place for 7 years with the same people, you would think said people would know when I’m irritated/pissed off/ill/in a bad mood. You would think said people would know not to fuck with me when I’m like that. Yet, they continue to do so. This leads me to bite their heads off which leads them to become mad at me. Mad at ME! When they should’ve known better in the first place.
I will never understand why people like to fuck with someone when they’re obviously NOT having a good go of it. The concept just eludes me. If I’m irritated, leave me alone, dammit!
*sigh*
I was in a great mood all morning. Then I went to lunch with Jake, and since he’s off today - and after spending that hour with him - all I wanted to do was go home and spend the afternoon with him. But, I couldn’t. I had to come back to work. Hence the illness. Not only did I have to come back to work (yeah, I know.. waaa waaa waaa), I have end-of-month inventory today which will probably mean more irritation and possibly working late. BAH!
Quote from “The Island”
I watched The Island with Ewan McGregor and Scarlett Johansson the other day, and it was pretty good. One quote I *love* from the movie is when Ewan McGregor’s character is talking to Steve Buscemi’s character:
Lincoln Six-Echo: What’s “God”?
McCord: Well, you know, when you want something really bad and you close your eyes and you wish for it? God’s the guy that ignores you.
!!!!! What a great quote! LOL
11.29.06
Been a long time
Two big pluses for today:
1) I got up early this morning and did Yoga for the first time in a long time
and
2) Budget looks jes fine! Weeeeeeee!!!
Piccies
I took some new pics this morning and uploaded them to Flickr. http://www.flickr.com/photos/entipy That first picture of me is a bit scary. All wide-eyed! LOL.
Today is good… so far. It might not be later when I look at our budget, but eh… it’s not the end of the world! I’m wearing my new Levi’s, and they look purty darn good. All I need now is a pair of boots!
More later, maybe.
11.28.06
Blogging Woes
Most of the past two days for me has been spent trying to get my blog(s) set up and running properly. I was ecstatic today because I found out that I could use Semagic to post to both my LJ and my WP blogs. Then later today, I found a Firefox add-on which is supposed to work with MySpace in addition to the other two. Well, hel, that would give me posting all in one convenient place! However, I think I entered my log-in info wrong in the MySpace part, and it won’t work. AND I can’t figure out how to change the log-in information. I tried uninstalling and reinstalling, but it wouldn’t work. Now, I’m trying to get into a support forum, and it’s not going through. *sigh* See? MySpace… nothing but freakin’ trouble!
I doubt I’ll waste too much more time dicking with that. It’s good enough I can post to LJ and WP all at once. So, that’s what I’ll do for now. Besides, I think I like the Semagic interface better than PerFormancing. Maybe it’s just because I’ve used it more.
What’s Wrong?
Sometimes, I honestly feel as though I have some horrible disease which has yet been identified. I just feel… weird sometimes… physically. I’m sure there is no horrible disease, to be quite honest, but it just makes me wonder on occasion. Feeling weak and light-headed and just “not there” or something. Maybe it’s just because I’m crazy! My “unstoppable brain” is eating up too many of my body’s cells or something. 
On another note, some things seem awfully unfair sometimes. Jake has to get up every morning between 3:30 a.m. and 4:00 a.m. in order to get to work. I go to bed with him every night, yet I don’t generally drag my ass out of bed until around 6:00 a.m. Something just seems unfair about that! LOL
11.27.06
Migrated
The site where I’ve been blogging off and on since 2002 is shutting down! *cries* I will really miss the community that was/is there. Hopefully some folks will still come read my stuff and leave a good address where I can go read theirs.
At any rate, I have spent the better part of today migrating entries from there to here, so in reading through all this old stuff, if anything sounds weird, it’s probably because it had something to do specifically with G-blog.
Adios to my first blogging home on the ‘net! And many thanks to Gossip for keeping it going as long as he did.
11.25.06
The Unstoppable Brain
I guess if I had to identify my own biggest flaw, it would be that I think too much. From the moment I wake up in the morning until the moment I finally go into that other world, my brain is working overtime. This really isn’t a good thing. My brain is always filled with crap. Remembering things some people have told me, trying to remember things others have told me, worrying about things people might tell me. Just… crap. Things which have no good place in my life. Things which will probably do nothing but end up hurting me. Things which just, ultimately, don’t matter.
I’ve wondered for years how I can get my brain to just shut up. I’ve not been successful yet. I’ve taken SSRIs, I’ve gone through therapy, I’ve talked about things with others until my tongue dries out, and I’ve blogged about bits and pieces here and there. Still… nothing. This all leads me to believe it’s something I will just have to deal with for the rest of my life. I guess I can handle it - as long as everyone else who matters in my life can.
I guess others who have this sort of problem find a hobby or something else to occupy their time/mind. I’ve tried that, but there’s generally nothing which can overpower the crap in my head. I suppose if I were to try harder to LET it overpower, it could, but I don’t, so it doesn’t. Of course, unless it’s an activity which uses brain cells, it doesn’t do much to curb the thoughts, either. My co-worker’s mom is famous for being of the mindset that if you’re busy enough, you don’t have time to think about stupid crap. That’s just not true - at least not in my case. Busy work (i.e. house cleaning, crafts, yard work - the sorts of things she means) doesn’t do anything but give me a physical activity to do WHILE the thoughts roll around in my head. [[Edie McClurg cracks me up.]]
Do most people realize who they are? Are they satisfied with it? I’m getting to the point where I’m realizing things about myself - good or bad - and accepting them (at least partially). But that doesn’t make it okay still. I still don’t like these things about myself, and I’d still like for them not to be, but I’m also starting to realize that I’m not sure this is even possible… changing them, I mean.
I’m a perpetually dissatisfied person for whom things are just never good enough, and my passion for things comes and goes pretty quickly, so picking something and sticking with it aren’t two of my strong points, certainly not when combined. However, if I just let myself live my day-to-day life without worrying about what I don’t have or how much better things might be, I’m fairly content. I cherish those moments when they’re around. Luckily, they prevail in my life nowadays. I have Jake. I have food. I have a decent place to live. I have my family and friends. And I have t.v. 
In closing, I suppose I will continue with my realizations and everyday life, and one day I may just wake up and like where I am and what I’m doing. Here’s hoping, anyway.
11.13.06
Sexual Consent Form
I love Law & Order. In watching an episode from last week (or the week before), I was just… confused. I really don’t know what I think about this topic, but I wanted to put it down somewhere in the hopes someone else might share his/her opinion. (This will be disjointed, brief, and nowhere near eloquent.)
Girl gets drunk
Girl takes off clothes for guy with camera and t.v. show (a la “Girls Gone Wild”)
Girl talks sexy to guy with camera and tells him if they were alone on a rocketship (?) she would be his freaky sex toy (or something)
Girl is a good-girl college student and after sobering up realizes she doesn’t want her parents to accidentally see her being a naughty freak on tape.
Girl tries to get tape back from t.v. show guy. He says NO… unless you have sex with me and pay me.
Girl says, “Okay.”
Girl signs sexual consent form. Basically, “Yeah, I’ll have sex with you. No, I won’t hold it against you.”
Later, after the sexual episode between the two (in which she says she told him NO because she changed her mind, so then he raped her), t.v. guy leaves naked used girl on bus for his buddy.
Buddy comes in and wants to have sex with girl.
Girl bashes buddy on the head with a champagne bottle and buddy dies.
(Oh, and when the sexual consent form comes out in trial, girl said she didn’t read what she signed - she thought it was something about turning the tape over)
In the end, t.v. guy goes to jail for rape AND 2nd degree murder of his buddy.
Okay, so… My big question is. If a girl signs a sexual consent form previous to having sex with a guy, should she be able to change her mind then call it rape? (Now, I know.. if the guy were worth a shit, and the girl said STOP, he would. But… he’s not, so.) I mean, you sign an agreement. Shouldn’t you abide by it?
But at the same time… when it’s something like sex, shouldn’t you have the right to change your mind?
Sometimes things just seem a little screwed up. Dunno.
11.09.06
The Contact Debaucle
My boss’s wife works for my optometrist, so she got me a pair of new contact lenses to try yesterday. (I’ve been wearing Acuvue Advance, and she told me she actually likes the Acuvue 2 better, so I said, “What the hay? If nothing else, it’s a free pair of contacts!”)
I pulled my new lenses out of the box this morning and popped them in. Well, I popped the first one in no problem. Popped the second one in, and all seemed fine. Then I blotted my eye with a towel (as I am wont to do to rid my eye of excess moisture), and suddenly, everything was blurry. FUCK! So, I spent about 5 or 10 minutes down on my hands and knees in the bathroom with a flashlight looking for the little bastard. I didn’t find it. FUCK! Then I decided to just put my old one back in because I didn’t have time to look anymore. *sigh* So, I did. As I leaned down to do something, there was like a shadow in the corner of my eye. Aw hel….
Moral of the story: whenever you “lose” a contact lens, the first place you look is in your eye!
(So now, I’m not sure which one I actually have in my left eye, as there was no way to tell the difference once I removed them. I guess I’ll have to judge by the right eye whether or not I like these lenses better.)
11.08.06
Yay for the victors!! (… and it’s over)
Logan’s soccer season came to a close last night with their last tournament game. It was a hard victory, and our goalie (keeper, actually, I think) saved our butts on multiple occasions. He’s a fearless kid, that one!
Last night not only signified the end of a winning season for Logan’s team, it also signified the end of her stint at playing rec soccer. I have to say, she’s had a good run of it, being on the winning team EVERY YEAR she’s played.
Hail the soccer players!
Hail the end of the season (cause I’m glad it’s over!!!)