09.28.07
Posted in General at 4:52 pm by Jules
I have these back issues that have been going on for over a year now. One spot on my back is seriously painfully bad. I’m talking a 7 on the 10-scale for pain when I’m not taking something to help alleviate it. (And get this loveliness, the *ONE* thing I could take which used to work and which doctors would give me, Tramadol, doesn’t work, anymore! YAY!) Again: Tylenol does nothing, I can’t take anti-inflammatories, and doctors won’t give me narcotics. The only thing which has helped it was when I went to a few Physical Therapy sessions. However, it just came back, and I can’t afford continued PT. I just can’t do it. I saw a spine dude about it - he took x-rays which showed nothing. He injected me with something which didn’t work and sent me to PT which I had to stop for financial reasons. Now, I’m going to go see another back dude to see if there’s something else that can maybe be done, but in the mean time, what do I do? The best I can, I suppose. I’ve started back with Yoga, I used the heating pad on it for hours last night, and I’m going to get Jake to push around in that spot (like the PT did) a few days a week for about 10 minutes. I’m hoping this will help.
So, there’s the back story. HERE is what I’ve been thinking about:
* I lost 150 pounds
* I have a LOT of loose skin on my stomach/abdomen
* The total poundage of my loose skin, I’m sure, FAR outweighs the extra fat in boobs
* Insurance will pay for boob reductions which cause ongoing back problems
* Why won’t they pay to have my extra skin removed?
* Is it because I was so fucked up as to get so fat in the first place? Because, if so, that’s just fucked up, too.
I might try it, anyway, and see if I can get them to do it. I foresee a long future of back problems ahead of me. Add on top of that possible psoriatic arthritis? Yeah, fun!
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09.06.07
Posted in General at 5:49 pm by Jules
I just found out that Pavarotti died. I’m sad. He seemed to live a pretty darn good life, though. His voice was my favorite out of any man’s voice I’ve ever heard (especially within the genre of opera).
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09.04.07
Posted in General at 5:13 pm by Jules
I feel… weird today. It’s hard to pinpoint, so I just use that term… weird. I’m not in a bad mood, I’m not unhappy, I’m not really tired. I don’t want to be at work, and my back hurts, and my feet are cold. And I’m still sore. Aside from all that, I just feel… weird. Like, meh. Or bah. Or one of those other silly ass ‘net wurdz.
Of course, Tom Waits doesn’t help to dispel any sort of resident weirdness, either. 
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09.03.07
Posted in General at 2:59 pm by Jules
It hurts even worse today! WAAA! I feel like a big ol’ sloppy pussy.
*sigh*
Happy Labor Day, though! 
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09.02.07
Posted in General at 9:06 pm by Jules
So, I’m pretty sore today. LOL. Jake and I went bowling last night, and we had a great time! It was fun but man… it’s been 5 or 6 years since I bowled (and I used to bowl in leagues). I couldn’t throw the damn house ball properly because my ball (which I didn’t take because the holes are too big for me now) is a fingertip ball, and… well, you just don’t throw them the same way! I can’t remember the last time I bowled so badly, actually. LOL. However, we still had a good time, so that’s the important thing. Then we shot a game of pool afterwards. Jake was beating me most of the time but ended up scratching on his 8-ball shot, so I won. I don’t count that as a “win,” though. Meh, I’m not competitive with him like that, anyway. We just enjoy these things, so we’ll try to do them more often!
YAY for adult time together DOING stuff that’s fun. 
Next time we bowl, I’m taking my ball, regardless! LOL
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09.01.07
Posted in General at 1:39 pm by Jules
It’s been quite awhile since I pulled out the ol’ tarot cards. I decided to give myself a reading this morning. Here we are. It never ceases to amaze me how freakin’ accurate and how much help these things can so often be.
1) Present Situation - Two of Swords
locking horns; stalemate; truce; competitive; challenging, abrasive relationship
2) More Present Situation - Ace of Pentacles
new financial venture which will be beneficial
3) Basis of the Matter - Nine of Pentacles
financially taken care of; buying something; solitary affluence; love of home and gardens; spending money on home, real estate, or office
4) Past Influences - Ace of Cups
new beginning of love and emotional rapport; good karma emotionally; new love relationship or friendship
5) Public Image or How Situation Appears - Knight of Cups
charming ladies’ man who is pleasant, sensitive and emotionally warm; social invitation
6) Immediate Future - XI Justice
karmic or legal justice; balanced judgment; appropriate resolution
7) Psychological Level of Destiny of the Situation - Six of Swords
helpful assistance in strife; turmoil subsiding; problems can be worked out; bridge over troubled waters; travel over water
Relationships - XVI The Tower
plans fall apart; breakdown of false structure; false sense of security crumbles; unexpected shakeup in plans; surprising turn of events
9) Conscious Hopes and Fears - Eight of Cups
withdrawing self or affections from a relationship; losing interest; backing off; loneliness; leaving stagnated situation to pursue meaningful interests
10) Final Outcome - Page of Rods
young person under 25 who is enthusiastic, enterprising, and creative; good news
I’m not going to add any interpretation here because, well, the reading is for myself, and I know what all of these mean for me right now. I will add, however, that I’m pleased with the results.
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