03.31.08
HAHA
Wash: I’m a leaf on the wind… it’s okay.
Mal: What does that MEAN??
Clinic?
They should create some sort of clinics for Lyrica withdrawals - like the Methadone clinics for folks coming off heroin! HAHAHAHA.
I laugh because… well, it’s better than crying while at work.
Lyrica Newz
Someone kill me now. I wish I’d never ever started taking this damn medication.
Folks, if you’re having pain issues, and your doctor suggests you try Lyrica, PLEASE be very careful!!!! If you decide to take it, be prepared to take it for a long time, be careful changing doses, be prepared for the possibility of weight gain and insatiable appetite, and then.. if you decide to STOP taking it - taper. Taper taper taper. For as long as you can stand to taper, evidently. Get help from a knowledgeable doctor about HOW to taper and in what doses. (Of course, good luck with that.) I had a pain management guy tell me a few weeks ago that I could just take Lyrica “as needed.” Umm…. if *these* are the withdrawal symptoms… don’t think so!!! All I can do is keep trying to make it through each minute, telling myself it’s temporary and will subside eventually. After a day or two more hopefully - and not WEEKS from now as some others have experienced. Thank goodness the Benadryl helped some with the itchy crawly skin this morning. However, it definitely did nothing for the sleepiness nor the freezing and inability to get warm!!
So, I had a few minutes before lunch. This is disjointed, I know, but only because I can’t think clearly enough to make it any better. GO AWAY SOON, please.
03.29.08
Ugh
I’m tired, sleepy, groggy, hungry, and irritable. I do *not* want to be online right now nor even using the computer for anything. But, I can’t seem to just LET myself sit and watch a t.v. show anymore - certainly not right at the moment. I’m tired of thinking about money and budgets and cars and trade-in values and menus and grocery lists and house cleaning and … *sigh* Not only ALL that, but my coffee - the thing which usually brings me joy - really sucks this morning for some reason. It seems too weak, but I made it myself last night, so it should be fine. Maybe I’ll make some instant. That’s almost always too strong. LMAO!
I woke up shortly after 5:00 a.m. today, nature dictating I get up from the bed, and I never could go back to sleep. I even TRIED. But no… so, here I sit, “watching” Voyager and puttering around on my laptop and on the internet wishing I wasn’t. I thought about getting up and making myself some oatmeal. I wonder if I could derive any amount of pleasure from that. Eat oatmeal and watch Voyager? I wonder if that would be enough. Should I just MAKE myself sit… and maybe then I would enjoy it?
BAH! I’m BORED!! UGH!!!
03.27.08
You know she’s a bitch when…
… you spill your cup of coffee all over your floor, and her mood improves considerably.
03.17.08
Finding the goodness
Today, I am thankful for my husband who is the most wonderful man I could ever hope for, and I’m thankful that both my arms are relatively pain-free. The little things are the real things in our lives. Pay attention to them.
03.09.08
Kinda update/info
To those of you who read this (and whose stuff *I* usually read, also), I just want y’all to know that I’m still alive, if only barely. I’m very far behind in a lot of things and having a difficult time in a lot of ways, so I wanted to let you know that’s why any of your journal/blog entries haven’t had response from me. Hopefully, I will return to the actual land of the living here very soon and keep up with things a bit better again. Here’s hoping, anyway!
Happy Sunday to you all.
03.05.08
Work
Well, I realized this morning… since I’m not in the family and not in the “club,” I’m officially the “outsider” where I work. Of course, I’m sure my co-workers have been thinking that way, anyway, because I’ve missed so much work lately. It’s so funny when you come back into a situation like that, you can feel the… hmmm… I don’t know if it’s animosity or not, but there’s definitely a good bit of looking down noses. Does it matter that I’m out for medical reasons? Nope. Not to them. They’ll take any opportunity they can to rib and jeer at someone for screwing up or being out. I’m tired of it, frankly. 1st of all, it’s none of their goddamn business why I’m not at work. 2nd of all, they don’t sign my paychecks, so their opinion really doesn’t fucking matter.
03.04.08
It’s hard, but…
I have recently found depths of self-control I thought I no longer (or never) possessed. Hard but…
I’m Proud
I am *PROUD* of myself. I am doing very fucking well in a couple of areas. I can’t really say what; I just wanted to share that I’m doing well. It’s a wonderful feeling.
That’s all.